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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

16.06.2025 01:43

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

What advice would you give to a father of a teenage daughter on how to protect her from boys, dating, and social media? How should fathers discuss these topics with their daughters?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Why do gun owners feel the need to defend themselves with deadly weapons? Can they not just talk things out like civilized people do?

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Why is porn so addictive?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

One cannot live in the past .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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The only rule us 5 kids had .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

What are the withdrawal symptoms of Klonopin 1mg?

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I was 9 years of age.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

How did the trans issue metastasize within just a decade from being a question of kindness and tolerance to a tiny minority to convulsing a whole society?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Why do some men like older women?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

He knew the spot.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

How good is KIIT school of management at Bhubaneswar?

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Can women learn to squirt?

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Im still living with it.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Who writes and reads novels nowadays?

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I was very sick at this time too.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

And i lived it daily.

So whats the point in blame.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She found it foreign!.

I could never make a relationship work though!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Was to survive, this bastard.

We all went to grammer schools

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Especially a lifetime of it.

I was seconnd youngest,

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

My life is so biszare .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I write beautiful poetry .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

This is soul school!.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

As i do to all so called friends.?

I said to her

My mum and dad in the seventies!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Who then, do I blame.?

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

She married twice! .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Ive learnt so much.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I was scared of men, in general

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Comes on , in middle age.

My family never makes their pension either.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

(And it was in our own minds.)

I couldn’t, believe it.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I have no regrets .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

What did i know ?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I waited trembling.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

She wouldn,t have been !

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But it wasn’t much.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

So, i spoilt her more .

She was in good health!

Why did i forgive my father ?

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Put me off passion for life!!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

It was going to be , some day.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Would this be the day?

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I never cut or harmed myself..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He resisted the act ,that day.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

All the time i was locked up.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

She loved him until the end.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But ive been too sick for many years..

We were not on the streets..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I don,t even have a pension.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

When she asked me how she looked .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I think the readers, may guess!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But, we were locked up after school.

I will be 64.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life